Today I feel led to share an excerpt from what I was writing in my journal this morning:
“Micah 7:7 – “But as for me, I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.”
Father, this verse that you gave me this morning in Micah resonates in my spirit with what I sense You have been impressing on me a lot lately -to get my eyes off of myself and to fix them on the author and the finisher of my faith – to “look to the LORD.” It goes along with what I have been contemplating all week – that the problem is too much self. When I think I am struggling with low self-esteem, the problem is really that I have low God-esteem. It’s not that my self-image is poor, but that my God-image is poor. It’s not that I lack self-confidence, it’s that I lack God-confidence. It isn’t that I need greater self-awareness, but that I need greater God-awareness. I don’t need to find myself, understand myself, or love myself more – I need to find, understand, and love God more.
The irony in all of this is that death to self is the path to life. To stop focusing on me is the way to freedom. I know this in my head, but to embrace it in my heart is another story. Oh Father, free me from myself that I might look to You and live for You and be wholeheartedly in love with You.”
